AMMDI is an open-notebook hypertext writing experiment, authored by Mike Travers aka mtraven. It's a work in progress and some parts are more polished than others. Comments welcome! More.
Why do I have such resistance to this? It does feel like a dumb mistake, but it is mine to make.
Perhaps I am confusing it with the subordination of man to to god. Can't have that. But it doesn't really mean that. Domination is the wrong metaphor.
Sublimating is actually more overwhelming than dominance, it means yielding one's whole being to a greater one, acknowledging that you are a part of something larger than yourself, and owing your being to it.
This is actually a completely normal and pleasurable thing. People do it all the time! I feel it eludes me though, out of resistance or incapacity or what. Don't know how to be a team player or a good chorister.
Except – tired of excuses, I'm going to do as good a job as I can, partly by not trying so hard
A sense that this names the same thing as enlightenment or awakening, even though the metaphors are different. Letting go of a false small sense of self, becoming large albeit not quite you anymore.